In May of 2005, I suddenly fell ill to what I can only describe as a nervous breakdown. I don’t even know if that would accurately describe it. All I know is that my husband thought I was ready to leave the planet. For five days my heart would race at way over 100 beats per minute. I could not sleep but could only pace the floor. When I tried to sleep, I was so scared because I literally felt my heart stop. I was in a constant state of panic. My little boy was 2 years old at the time. This was when I lived in Hawaii and my current doctor was a Naturopathic Physician. I didn’t have great luck with western medicine, but when my N.D. couldn’t help me, I had no choice but to go to the ER, where I was admitted to the Psychiatric Ward.

The doctors kept overloading my system with antidepressants and anti-anxiety medication, because they could not figure out what was wrong with me. I had never been a depressed person, nor had I ever taken antidepressants in the past. They insisted I was depressed and gave me dosages that I would perhaps give an elephant. From 2005-2008 I was hospitalized in a Psychiatric Unit four times. The antidepressants were not working and I kept getting worse. I wanted to leave the planet many times as I suffered excruciating emotional pain and anguish. My doctor’s solution…give her more drugs. I remember living in Boston, reading….. book about how no medication had helped her depression and how she went to Massachussetts General Hospital and had shock therapy. Living in Massachussetts, I thought it was my only way of surviving.

In early 2007, I remember watching ……. introducing "The Secret" to the world on…... I felt this rush of excitement. I hadn’t felt excitement in a very long time. After the show, I drove to a bookstore and started learning how to visualize and making my wildest dreams come true.
( I could never manifest good health however, and continued to suffer.) My caveat is I did manifest my family moving to San Diego and it was thrilling, having that happen. I knew there was something way beyond anything I had ever known or been taught in the past, as our moving to SD was nothing short of a miracle.

I started studying various energetic healing modalities and in early 2008, I learned of Self I-Dentity Through Ho’oponopono. I studied and did the "cleaning" process religiously. The depression went away and I threw all of my addictive antidepressants, anti-A.D.D. and anti-anxiety medication in the trash. I haven’t taken any medication whatsoever since November 11th, 2008; currently it is January 29th, 2012.
I feel like a million bucks and still do my "cleaning" even today, even as I type this.

Self I-Dentity through Ho’oponopono is immense with profound blessings, wisdom and beauty. I hold this like a treasure, next to my heart and I am deeply grateful to God, for giving me this most sacred gift.